Weigh-in

.2

And all I needed to reach my 10% and get a keychain was .4.

I knew the WW scale was off last week. Home scale said 140. Weight Watchers scale said 146. That's right back to exactly a 6 pound difference. What happened last week, I have no idea. So basically, instead of losing 2.2 last week, I probably only lost a pound. And this week a pound. Or 1.2 each week.

So freaking frustrated. I knew not to believe the scale last week.

I am dumb AND fat.

Can't Believe It!!!

I am shell-shocked. I never expected to search yahoo images for "happy scale".

 Either my home scale (which has always been exactly 6 pounds less than WW) is off or the WW scale is off, because the WW scale said I lost an additional 2.2 pounds this week.

Part of me is super-psyched. The other part is, whose scale went haywire?


Did WW recalibrate theirs? Certainly nothing changed with my home scale. After jumping up to 145 all week, it went back to 143 both yesterday and this morning, which should have meant WW scale said 149. I almost didn't go because I didn't want to see a gain. (Last week, WW said 148.4)

But somehow or another, the WW scale said today: 146.2!!!

Only .4 pounds and I will reach my 10%. And that doesn't count the 10 pounds I lost before joining!

So, I am much more motivated to stay within points this difficult holiday weekend (not only barbecue on Monday, but going to see Kung Fu Panda 2 tomorrow which must include pretzel bites with cheese!). Def no pizza this weekend, lol.

Sigh...last time this usual 3-nights of pizza per weekend girl had pizza was 2 slices (compared to the normal 4) of rising crust frozen pizza. With that exception, I have not had pizza in 7 weeks. I am dying for REAL, pizzeria, smothered in pepperoni, dripping with grease pizza.

Next weekend, lol. Will work it in points wise, but can't this weekend due the holiday.

Oh well, can't believe I lost. Am fearful next week will show the scale was wrong and I gain back 2 pounds. Really hard to not just let myself truly enjoy because one of the scales was wrong. If next week shows another loss, I'll believe it. And be stoked.

Don't get me wrong, I'm quite happy and this is def the motivation I needed to get through this weekend without binging like the old me. Just wish both scales matched up as they have for the last 8 months. : /

Friday Bait and Switch

As you know, for weeks I've been weighing it at WW on Wednesdays losing numbers like .4, .8, and my worst, .2. So last week, I switched to Friday (since the home scale seems to shows a consistent loss of 1 pound per week) and lost 2 pounds! And now one week later, skipping WW Wednesday, it's Friday and the home scale says I've GAINED.

I feel like ripping my hair out.

I work too hard to see gains. My first thought/desire is to eat the very food I've been depriving myself of because what's the point? This urge is going to be particularly difficult this holiday weekend. It would be so much easier to pass up yummy delights at parties if I were high off a loss.
 
The verdict is not officially i though. I have 2 more hours till weigh-in, need to go to the bathroom, and may work out (which only ONCE worked -- the scale went down 1 1/2 pounds from my morning weight after I worked out, but hey, I can try).

Friday

So I did it -- I woke up with the home scale back down to the previous Friday's week, so I hopped in the car and went to WW (even though I had gone as usual Wednesday and lost only .2). Sure enough, the scale was down 2 more pounds!

I am finally out the 150's! I completely skilled 149, after weeks of just wanting to see 149.9. I am now 148.4. So very cool!

Another Weigh In

So, by Tuesday morning I re-lost the 2 pounds I gained over the weekend at Girl's night, but nothing else, so the WW scale said -.2.

Point 2?!??!?!

Just because I ate my 49 bonus points??? For crying out loud I earned 46 activity points!

So what does my WW leader say. I exercise too much (WW doesn't recommend going over 42). I didn't do 46 on purpose, I would just be motivated to go another 10 minutes or run a bit faster, etc. and it ended up adding up.

So she also suggested I eat more. $%#(&*^#

Do these people not watch biggest loser? I eat the SAME as them and work out for 1 hour, while they work out for 4.

Anyway....naturally the scale goes down a pound and a half THIS MORNING.

I am half tempted to go to a WW meeting tomorrow and weigh in again just to finally see under 150 in my booklet.

This is not the first time my weight has fluctuated JUST on Wednesday mornings. So very frustrating.

1.6

Well, the scale had me lose 1.6. Woopie doo.


While I was there, two other girls who both work out like me (run and weights) shared thier weight loss. One lost 3.8. the other lost 4.5.

I compared what they did, to what I do eating wise and they both eat their bonus 49 points (and some exercise points) neither of which I do. So I decided to try one more week of doing it the “right” way, and went on a date with my husband to TGIF’s where I got the Jack Daniels Chicken Strip app as my meal, split a flat bread spinach app with hubby, had 3 bites of his loaded mashed potatoes, and split a brownie sundae for dessert. Oh, and I had a cosmo.

Saturday morning, the scale was up 2 pounds. This morning, it was still up 2 pounds. If I have a gain on Wednesday, I am going to go berserk. I am at my wits end doing this the “right” way. I keep saying I’m just gonna go VLCD but something convinces me to try one more time the “right” way, and I’m scared to death of gaining it right back (because of whatever reason, water with Atkins, supposedly voracious fat storage with VLCD).

I am getting so frustrated. And on biggest loser they create a calorie deficit in the negative (burn off more than they eat or need to live and more), so how in the world can I possibly not be eating enough to lose weight? How could I let them convince me to eat more and I would lose? If I gained, I will be close to raving, raging mad. Summer is coming. My birthday is coming. And it’s looking like I will never reach goal.

Weigh-in

Well, last Wednesday showed a loss of .4 pounds.

After 3 weeks of running my butt off and eating right and not losing, this would have been followed by a week of eating all the foods I've deprived myself of and not exercising a bit.

But I had taken my food journal into Weight Watchers with me, and stayed after the meeting to talk to the leader. She suggested that I stop drinking a 3rd of my points -- 2 EAS low-carb, protein shakes (3 points each) and 2 cups of sugar-free coffee at night for dessert (5 points) and eat those points instead.

So I mustered all of my waning self-discipline and motivation and did just what she said. For breakfast and lunch, I ate string cheese and chicken salad and for dessert I had 1 or 2 1-point no sugar added fudgsicles. Over the weekend I dipped into my points allowance (used 8 of my 49) and treated myself to WW desserts (peanut butter cup sundae, praline turtle sundae, and  chocolate chip cookie dough sundae -- 4 points each).

I ate a salad almost every weekday, watched my sodium intake, and drank more than the required water.

I also earned myself 33 exercise points which I did not eat. (Jog/power walked 15.5 miles, and an accumulated 1 hour 45 minutes medium-intensity step aerobics which I do in chunks).

My home scale (which is approx 6 pounds less than Weight Watchers) says I lost 1 pound, maybe 2. It's hard to tell as it's not digital. Last week, I weighed in at 153. After 4 weeks of not losing, I was really hoping to see 149.9 today, hoping that my body adjusted and dropped a big number.

If I only lost 1 pound, I will be extremely discouraged. I am so far behind from reaching my goal of 133 by my 33rd birthday, it's not even funny.  I will probably have to readjust my goal to be 33 on my home scale, which will put me under 140, something I've not been in 12 years, and even then only maintained for a few months (moved and stopped dieting).

And I haven't decided if I will cut my eating points or eat more of my points allowance. Eat more? Eat less? I'm honestly not sure at this point. I do know that I have almost no motivation to keep pushing myself physically anymore if I don't start seeing the pounds go down.

I don't understand why this is so difficult. I'm finally motivated and in the right place mentally to actually achieve and maintain my goal, and now body refuses to cooperate. :(

PS -- I will try to remember to post my weight when I get back from weight watchers. Depending if I have to go to work right after, it may be in 2 hours of 7. Wish me luck.

Weight Watchers Wednesday

So the starvation mode experiment post was written over a week ago, but only published Monday. That being said, my weight dropped approx 5 pounds in a week, then went up 3 a few days later overnight...the morning of which I was super excited to attend my first weight watchers meeting since before Christmas. (I'd gained and wanted to resume once I'd shed the holiday fat.)

Much discouragement as I wanted to see the scale say 149.9 and all it said was 153.4. A loss of .4 since my last meeting. So i then engaged in a two-day internal debate as to should I continue on starvation mode or should I try to eat my points (and do weight watchers right), and studied how to break thru plateaus, which includes dropping your calories by 100 or 200 which I couldn't do if I was already only at 750.

I therefore came to the conclusion to do my points (29) for a week, keep my cardio the same (around 3 miles a day, some days more, plus light strength training), and see if I drop. My meeting is tomorow. I am hoping for 149.9. I will be terribly dissapointed if I only get 151.4 only becuase that is what last week's weight was Tuesday Morning. (Wednesday I woke up and was up two pounds!). So I would like to hope that it was somehow water weight I've kept on for the entire week and have lost an additional 2 pounds.

Hey, I can hope.

If I am still 153 (which the scale said this morning and every morning this week, well, actually it's said 147 but it is 6 pounds off from Weight Watchers), I am going back to starvation mode. And that experiment will resume. If I weigh in at 149.9, I will stick with the points.

One thing I am excited about is I'm going to buy the Weight Watchers Pedometer which counts your points, becuase I am hoping I am underestimating my energy. We shall see.

Cross your fingers for me. I weigh in at 9:45 tomorrow morning.